2 Corinthians 9:8 And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
So many times I have heard this passage, usually talking about monetary blessings, physical, tangible things. Which is all great. I totally believe that God wants to pour out blessings into our lives. Today however, this verse touched me at my weakest place, a place of great need in my life. Today, the promise that I will have all that I need, to do whatever God asks of me (good work) is especially welcome news. Cause I’m struggling. I’m trudging thru the same issue I’ve been actively fighting for the past 5 years.
As you can probably tell from all my baking posts, I love food. Really. Truly. LOVE it. It is because of this love affair with food that I’m forced to do things like Jillian’s 30 Day Shred. Delicious things are a constant temptation for me, and frequently I get a little out of control with what I put in my mouth. I’d border on calling food an addiction really. An addiction that, at a mere 5 foot 3 (or shorter, depending on who you ask) – brought me to weighing over 200 pounds before I decided to do something about it.
The problem is, food is my drug of choice. It calms me. Comforts me. When I’m feeling tired, I eat. Bored? More food. Don’t even get me started on feelings of sadness, loneliness or anger. Actually, my most amazing baked goods often come out of those emotions. I try to turn those feelings over to God instead of consuming them in the form of doughy chocolate topped treats. But sometimes, I miserably fail. More than I’d like to admit actually. Although, I guess I kind of just admitted it.
I always feel utterly horrible and wretched after I emotionally vent by bingeing on food. And it’s easy to watch all my willpower spiral out of control into an extended cycle of eating because I feel rotten and feeling miserable because of what I’ve just consumed. That’s when it gets really ugly. I feel that stirring today. I really don’t want to workout. Even more so, I didn’t want to spend time with the Lord. Because I feel so lousy and unworthy. So, I forced myself into the Bible for my devotional reading. And later, I’ll go find Jillian. But my God time was more important, so it came first.
Thankfully, He is amazingly faithful. Not only did I find this verse about Him giving me all that I need, but later in 2 Corinthians 10 – this passage in verse 4. “The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.” So, not does God bless me and give me everything I need (all the time), but the weapons I have to fight with absolutely kick butt. Food is most certainly a stronghold in my life. I don’t want to view it as bad. I’m sick of the struggle between eating food that I love, but not making food the absolute most important part of my life. I know, that sounds funny coming from a person with a baking blog. You can see how this is a problem for me.
I wish I could tell you that after my time with the Lord today, my mind is suddenly transformed and I now have a totally healthy view on food. But, you would probably know that was a big fat lie. Here’s what I know is true though. Food is not stronger than God. I’m pretty sure that abundant blessings do not include being a slave to my appetite. Today, I choose to believe in the Lord’s promise that He has equipped me with everything I need to win this fight. That no stronghold is well fortified enough to withstand Christ’s power over it. Not even the one I’ve been feeding all my life.