2 Corinthians 4:16-17 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
These verses today reinforced for me something I heard in my church service on Sunday. Here’s what I wrote in my notes: “When we take anger and turn it inward, it becomes depression. When we take anger and turn it outward, it becomes gossip. When we take anger and turn it downward (start listening to the lies of Satan), it becomes oppression. Only when we take our anger and turn it upward does it find the appropriate vent, and we are able to move on.” Sometimes, we have a right to be hurt. We have a valid reason to be angry. It’s what we do with those emotions that determine the lasting effect of them on our lives. Anger resolved improperly only becomes a bigger problem. We vent to other people and turn into gossips. We harbor resentment and it eats us alive. But the process of allowing anger to exist in a healthy way is hard – because it requires us to turn our emotions over to the Lord.
Also from Sunday’s message – Habakkuk 1:3 “Why do you make me look at injustice? Why do you tolerate wrong? Destruction and violence are before me; there is strife, and conflict abounds.” I’m not going to lie. It felt good to sit in a service and hear exactly what I’ve been asking God all week…and from the Bible no less. Why? Why is this unfairness allowed to continue? Suddenly I felt given permission to be really honest about my emotions of hurt, anger and sadness. But, here’s the key. I have to give those emotions over to God. He’s the only one who can fix things. It’s ok to tell Him I’m not happy about how things are – but then I need to allow Him to handle it. When I’m not sure what to do (and I’m still not), that’s when I need to do nothing at all. Wait. Stop. Listen. Ultimately I’m not telling God anything new when I complain to Him. I mean really, He already knows, right? And (here’s the awesome part to me) He already knows the resolution. A fix that is so perfect, I wouldn’t believe it even if He told me how it was all going to work out. And all the problems that seem so huge in my life right now, are really just momentary troubles in the grand scheme of things. Blips on the radar that are helping me to trust God more and more. Bringing me to a place where my first response isn’t to call my mom, talk to my husband or go for a run and sob the whole time – but a place where the first cry of my heart is to turn whatever it is over to the Lord. And watch Him work out the details.
Thank you Lord that even when I have no clue what to do, you have it figured out. Thank you that when I cannot even properly identify my emotions, I can still release them to you, knowing they are safe there. Help me to make you my first line of defense against the momentary troubles of my life. Trusting in your perfect plan for the details.